Tomorrow marks my return to Canada, Welland, but mostly to the people and life I left behind. How do I feel? I am not even remotely sure. Excited maybe, but overwhelmingly anxious is probably a better description. I cannot wait to see certain individuals, but I almost feel like I began to build a different life here. Not necessarily a better one, but I've changed. I don't feel so small town, and it feels surprisingly good knowing that I can survive in the big city.
My heart aches because I am leaving someone new behind. Someone that I never even intended to meet. I love and hate how things just happen, and all of a sudden your life has changed, your entire outlook on life has changed. The world feels much smaller and impossibly bigger at the same time. It has been an incredible journey and it feels horrible that it has come to an end.Although, I have this strange sensation that something new and exciting has just started for me. I feel like a grown up and for the first time ever I am not so afraid. It's amazing when you can feel your life actually going somewhere. Tomorrow will be Canada, but the future is unbelievably unpredictable, which I understand now more than ever.
See you soon,
C
